Monday, February 03, 2003

woke up thinking that she was still mine, coz i had a dream of us being together. yesterday wasnt such a great day. walked past a park near my house, remembered how one day she surprised me by coming to my house there and bought breakfast for me. walked to the mrt station. topped up my farecard, remembered how she always pressed for the receipt and would crush and throw it away. walked into the train, remembered how she always like to stand in between train boxes and how i like her leaning on my chest and me leaning against the wall. i walked down the train to see if she was there, she wasnt there to surprise me. walked to breadtalk, remembered how she always like to look ard the store and always ended up buying the bread pork ribs. remembered how she would always take a portion of the bread and put it in my mouth. started working, remembered how i would tell her when i was going to start work, and how i would always know she will be there for me, no matter how bad work was. first day of work without her, felt totally lost. walked along orchard road, remembered the places that we used to go.

while walking, remembered how her hand would always hang tirelessly on my elbow, how her head always seems to find the right spot on my shoulder and even when she didint, remembered how her chin would tickle my collarbone. wonder if she missed us. jas, i know u might going to read this. just wan u to know that i didnt give u the website and write all this to show or let u know anything. if i rilly did, i would have told u the website when i started this thing. i rilly miss u ya.

a lot...

not rilly thankful to be alive anymore - bert
gilbert at 4:49 PM [comment]

{I hear voices, voices only half as humane as mine..}